Stuff I Want To Know! Please Answer!

WoW! i havent wrote in this FOR AGES! sorry bout that!
Aww Jay I Love You Baby!
Everyone right now I'm chillin with the SKAM CREW! woot woot..kinda CraZzy here! lol but lately I have been feeling kinda down and confussed! First I'd like to say thanks Jay Boo..for always being here for me! Love You More Than Anything! always have n always will! And dont forget..yur going with me when I get my tats :)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOO!
get the kegs out and party! oh yeaaaahhhhh! lol!
oh my, jay! MOOOO lol! that was so fun and then u... ribbit ribbit! lol me and my cow goggles, u and yur frog goggles! YE!
So how was everyones Christmas?
can u believe its almost 2006.. in about 5 hours! HOLY!
time is flying by so fast!

Have u ever sat there n jus thought to yurself... im happy, but why am i sad! and then u know why for most of the things... but then theres that one thing u jus cant grasp onto?
i always feel like this, ever since i was lil! and dont get me wrong, i love wondering! but i think i know why im feeling like that lately! and i jus dont wanna wonder anymore... cuz with this situation... if reflects my WHOLE life! every part of it! And i jus wanna be prepared for some of my upcoming life! but then it makes me wonder! Is there really a time where u can prepare for life? I mean really, think about it... u get all ready to be something for a career job and stuff, and then a whole wack of people dont even become what they wanna become in life! They worked all that time for nothing, and jus give up! So I myself have thought, NO if that happens to me, I'm not going to give up! They say that sometimes its the best thing to give up! But with me its not, giving up in my case shows me that im soft, that i lied to myself! And I WILL NOT have that! I cant except that! Also, sometimes they say that the best thing to do to love a person is to let them go! But in my opinion! thats not true... everyone has there own opinion! and i mean in away i agree with it! BUT i strongly dis-agree, because think about it~do u really wanna let that person go..the one that means the most to u in yur life, the one that lifts yur whole life up off the ground, the one thats always there no matter what, the one that u can tell anything to and they dont care, they still some how love u for u! If u let them go yur going to regret it! and if u regret not letting them go also, then think bout it, at least yur at a position where u can try to get them back, or u can at least look into there amazing eyes and know that u did the right thing for once! the one thing that means the most to u outta everything!

PLEASE people.... comment this... and let me know what u think! Id really appriciate it~id like to know what other people think, to see if im the only one who feels things like this or what!

Thanks for being here and what not for me... love you all! *Mandi*